Today got off to a rocky start. I had several things I needed to get accomplished this morning. A big errand - getting my sons Kindergarten Registration completed, then taking the boys to the dentist for getting their teeth cleaned!
I woke up before my alarm went off, but was sick to my stomach. I was all like "I am so not going to bible study tonight!" Then struggled through getting ready with an attitude of ungratefulness. I went outside and my car was parked in a foot of water, so the boys and I all got our shoes wet :( . I felt angry that I didn't move my car the night before. Then we drove to the school to register and they wouldn't open the door for me because it wasn't yet 7:30, so we had to wait in the rain. On the inside I was like "Really, you can't just let us in, my kids don't even go this school yet!" Then the boys went nutz wanting to run around and tare the Valentines decorations off of the walls. Needless to say I was so embarrassed. We got to the dentists office 10 minutes late, but they didn't seem to mind at all; Thank you Jesus! The boys did great with their teeth cleanings and sat still like angels. I was so proud! But at the end they were back to their rowdy selves again, and cried that they couldn't stay at the dentists office. Then my oldest son peed his pants, and we didn't have a change of clothes, so we had to take a trip to Wal mart. Thankfully I thought to purchase socks because when we were leaving my littlest one jumped in a puddle and his socks and shoes were soaked!
I had a baditude! I was all crazy on the inside, and mad that things were not going the way I wished they would have. Not only were my feet wet, but I just willingly bent over and got my head all drenched in the puddle too (metaphorically speaking)! My expectations were way off base, and that took a toll on me. I should have stopped all the rushing, and said "Lord I know your plan is better than mine! So I'm just gonna let it be what it will be, and choose to be a blessing instead."
Looking back at this morning, what were the reasons why I got so upset again? Why did I care so much about such insignificant things? When our feet got wet my mind immediately went to: now I have to go back in and get more shoes so their feet will be warm and dry, and it will take more time, and then we will be late, and then the secretary won't be happy with me. When the boys were running around in the school office, I was embarrassed because of what I thought the secretary was probably thinking about me and my kids (even though she did not say one word). I got upset when my son had a potty accident and I didn't have a change of clothes for him, and that meant I had to either buy more clothes or suffer the "wrath" of the daycare for using a pair of their emergency pants, and that would be mortifying. But the reality is that there was nothing in any of those situations that was worthy of a freak-out. Nothing! I was more focused on others than God.
I woke up before my alarm went off, but was sick to my stomach. I was all like "I am so not going to bible study tonight!" Then struggled through getting ready with an attitude of ungratefulness. I went outside and my car was parked in a foot of water, so the boys and I all got our shoes wet :( . I felt angry that I didn't move my car the night before. Then we drove to the school to register and they wouldn't open the door for me because it wasn't yet 7:30, so we had to wait in the rain. On the inside I was like "Really, you can't just let us in, my kids don't even go this school yet!" Then the boys went nutz wanting to run around and tare the Valentines decorations off of the walls. Needless to say I was so embarrassed. We got to the dentists office 10 minutes late, but they didn't seem to mind at all; Thank you Jesus! The boys did great with their teeth cleanings and sat still like angels. I was so proud! But at the end they were back to their rowdy selves again, and cried that they couldn't stay at the dentists office. Then my oldest son peed his pants, and we didn't have a change of clothes, so we had to take a trip to Wal mart. Thankfully I thought to purchase socks because when we were leaving my littlest one jumped in a puddle and his socks and shoes were soaked!
I had a baditude! I was all crazy on the inside, and mad that things were not going the way I wished they would have. Not only were my feet wet, but I just willingly bent over and got my head all drenched in the puddle too (metaphorically speaking)! My expectations were way off base, and that took a toll on me. I should have stopped all the rushing, and said "Lord I know your plan is better than mine! So I'm just gonna let it be what it will be, and choose to be a blessing instead."
Looking back at this morning, what were the reasons why I got so upset again? Why did I care so much about such insignificant things? When our feet got wet my mind immediately went to: now I have to go back in and get more shoes so their feet will be warm and dry, and it will take more time, and then we will be late, and then the secretary won't be happy with me. When the boys were running around in the school office, I was embarrassed because of what I thought the secretary was probably thinking about me and my kids (even though she did not say one word). I got upset when my son had a potty accident and I didn't have a change of clothes for him, and that meant I had to either buy more clothes or suffer the "wrath" of the daycare for using a pair of their emergency pants, and that would be mortifying. But the reality is that there was nothing in any of those situations that was worthy of a freak-out. Nothing! I was more focused on others than God.
The opinions of others does not matter, the only opinion that matters is the Lords. Luke 16: 15 "Jesus said to them 'You are the ones who justify yourselves in the eyes of men, but God knows your hearts. What is highly valued among men is detestable in God's sight.'"
So, when your feeling like your head is in a puddle. Just call upon Jesus, ask for forgiveness for making a mess in your mind, and let Him make your day move as it should. Remember that this day was created by God, and we have a choice to react to it with grace or with crazy. Psalm 118:24 "This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it."
So, when your feeling like your head is in a puddle. Just call upon Jesus, ask for forgiveness for making a mess in your mind, and let Him make your day move as it should. Remember that this day was created by God, and we have a choice to react to it with grace or with crazy. Psalm 118:24 "This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it."